2010..

I have been waiting for months to leap across the starting line when I’m flattering prepared to blog again. Sometimes, the thought of not knowing the number of pair of eyes reading your post with their hearts, will wrench your privilege of being able to write your feelings here.

Happy new year everyone,

This year, I did not have the drive to wish anyone happy New Year like I always do.

Apparently, I pretty much raged against this whole new year because its just another day, another year. So, why should it be different from any other day?

You’re still doing IB.



Trepidation, reluctance, disinclination: - are refraining me from welcoming 2010.

God, the 1990’s babiessss, we are 20 this year! It’s the number 2 I am talking about.
We are in the 2010 with the 20 of our age!


Many people, like me, fancy the idea of starting the new year with stacks of resolutions. We hope to wake an hour earlier, or to devote Saturday afternoons to Pure Maths Higher Level. We try to watch less movies, have a crush on new guy, eat more healthily and even trying to work your butt off at the gym more often.

Most of us fail entirely and spend too much time on our bottoms mourning our losses.

The year 2009 has been a great one although I may have been walking on eggshells for some part of it. As what I have read just now, mistakes and failure are a few errors in judgement, repeated everyday. I agree. You will not learn if you don’t fail.
Browsing through my diary, I caught myself laughing inwardly at the silly things that the 2009 I had the pleasure of doing. But when I reached some of the depressing parts in my diary which covers three quarter of the diary, strangely the feeling that bathed me was entirely different.

I felt fine.

Regrets are inevitable but I was okay with the regrets. I was fine with the way I behaved, the way I felt, because ultimately, they are all in the past. I could hate the ‘me’ that did all those shits, but where actually the hatred could lead me ? Not the place I’ve dreamt of, I presume. If I were given the chance to experience 2009 again, I would have to say baby,I’m good:)
I’m tired of having more superficial resolutions. So my resolutions this year will me as superficial as mine 5 years ago. The same resolutions for these 5 years. The sixth, yes, they are still the same.
To eat healthily, to exercise more, to not spend too much, not to procrastinate blablabla

Will I hole the end of my word? We shall see.
If I end up penniless, on the hospital be, with a stroke after having liposuction done with zero ability to justify my situation, then we will then have the authorization to use the word

FAIL!!



The remaining of my resolutions are slightly more intimate, involving conscience and sentiments and that,

are only for those who care.

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Happy new year