Sunday

this weekend is supposed to be one of the best weekend in my life.
something happened to one of my close friend.
Praying hard that she'll be safe.

things start to fall back into place.
there's no new leaf turned. but it is once tattered, n it is healthily recovering now.



Last night, i swear to god that the air conditioner in the room was at 24 degrees Celsius. I don’t know what went wrong that suddenly it turned so cold, I could've sworn the snot in my nose froze over. :( ..

I have been terribly inert and also endlessly busy with the bloodcurdling thoughts of having maths class with puan siti for 1 semester , and the worries about my pictures that are to be enclosed in the EE are not clear enough. The progress on the check-things-off-to-do-list project is abysmal . Its weekend and I feel like stoning, obviously ignoring the amount of work piled up before me, literally.

The list:

1. Finish EE- send before February.. endless I tell you. endless
2. EE pictures, need to work out on them
3. print the final copy of TOK essay. Weee!!!
4. Study chemistry, option topic, its sem 4 dayana!!, harloo, you cuckoo??
5. Study Bio, got test .
6. Study matrices (cikgu siti)
7. Hafal mathurat . owh bab kahwin best:P
8. Jog at least on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday.
Kmimi’s is getting married in June, I have to look good in pictures.
9, Call mama everyday
10. Read on Ireland

Plenty of things to do and yet, I can't get my big bum off the chair and DO THEM. Well except for 1, 2, 3, 4,5,6,7. I NEED to be on the chair for that.

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Actually, come to think of it, the past week has been pretty good, if and only if I opt to remain blind towards the more serious stuff, i.e WORK and the cruel inevitability of fate.

Its just like getting on the see-saw with a severely obese person - you stay up there for a tad bit longer and it is a tad bit harder to go back down.



You know what they say,

Better to light a candle than to curse the darkness.



I would like to believe that all this is not dependent on perfectly balanced hormones, agreeable environment or even the optimal alignment of the moon and stars but instead, I would like to presume that my position is the result of choice.



p/s dear you, thank you. You made my day. Seriously, I was surprised when you popped out the question.I almost cried. I promise I’ll be good

brighter than sunshine

Even when you´re gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack
and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that



in life, things come and go

this is simply applicable to human too.

yes, i can't agree more. you came back when i least expect it.

i am thankful.:)
this time, please, make it worth it.

you make me smile

when flowers grew from ur head

woke up early today.
can't really sleep last night.don't blame me:P
hepatitis b jab makes me excited!!
i haven't gotten any jab since 7.yes no bcg, no rubella or whatsoever they call it.

doctor,please,do me a favor.
may i request for a jab for being incoherently obnoxious?

dr.syazana omar might approve it:P
tatau yg mane satu? ala yg bunga tumbuh dkt kepala tu

awesom possum!

Murphy's law states that anything that can go wrong, will go wrong.
Murphy's extended law states that if a series of events can go wrong, they will do so in the worst possible sequence.

We have to credit Mr Murphy for being an optimist. Really!

You made my day.

p/s buble's driving me sane:P

2010..

I have been waiting for months to leap across the starting line when I’m flattering prepared to blog again. Sometimes, the thought of not knowing the number of pair of eyes reading your post with their hearts, will wrench your privilege of being able to write your feelings here.

Happy new year everyone,

This year, I did not have the drive to wish anyone happy New Year like I always do.

Apparently, I pretty much raged against this whole new year because its just another day, another year. So, why should it be different from any other day?

You’re still doing IB.



Trepidation, reluctance, disinclination: - are refraining me from welcoming 2010.

God, the 1990’s babiessss, we are 20 this year! It’s the number 2 I am talking about.
We are in the 2010 with the 20 of our age!


Many people, like me, fancy the idea of starting the new year with stacks of resolutions. We hope to wake an hour earlier, or to devote Saturday afternoons to Pure Maths Higher Level. We try to watch less movies, have a crush on new guy, eat more healthily and even trying to work your butt off at the gym more often.

Most of us fail entirely and spend too much time on our bottoms mourning our losses.

The year 2009 has been a great one although I may have been walking on eggshells for some part of it. As what I have read just now, mistakes and failure are a few errors in judgement, repeated everyday. I agree. You will not learn if you don’t fail.
Browsing through my diary, I caught myself laughing inwardly at the silly things that the 2009 I had the pleasure of doing. But when I reached some of the depressing parts in my diary which covers three quarter of the diary, strangely the feeling that bathed me was entirely different.

I felt fine.

Regrets are inevitable but I was okay with the regrets. I was fine with the way I behaved, the way I felt, because ultimately, they are all in the past. I could hate the ‘me’ that did all those shits, but where actually the hatred could lead me ? Not the place I’ve dreamt of, I presume. If I were given the chance to experience 2009 again, I would have to say baby,I’m good:)
I’m tired of having more superficial resolutions. So my resolutions this year will me as superficial as mine 5 years ago. The same resolutions for these 5 years. The sixth, yes, they are still the same.
To eat healthily, to exercise more, to not spend too much, not to procrastinate blablabla

Will I hole the end of my word? We shall see.
If I end up penniless, on the hospital be, with a stroke after having liposuction done with zero ability to justify my situation, then we will then have the authorization to use the word

FAIL!!



The remaining of my resolutions are slightly more intimate, involving conscience and sentiments and that,

are only for those who care.

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Happy new year